Lots of worries… tough being me.

Hate the burden I m tasked to carry.

WHY ME?

We are into Dec 2009, had lunch with mel last week and we were wondering what did we do in the last 11 months.

All I know was I spent fair amount of time and money with the Professionals ( Specialists) and I have 1 on going doc appt and another open appointment.

Workwise, it has been rather ok. No traveling this year. But I m not sure what it will like next year though. Like the other day Zc says that he is itching to travel for work again. Recently I have been feeling that way too. The home sickness part has been diluted I think I can do better now. It’s a matter of getting used to it.

Nothing exciting didn’t do any big projects only BIG thing I have done was the Dept offsite thingy at NSRCC. Glad to have pulled it through with the rest of the EES team though.. Big thanks to Cindy, Andrew, Eric & of cos our dearest Miss Lim…

Found a new fren at work… great. Lost one along the way. Ok lost will not be a good word, drifted apart will be. The one thing that I expect from a friend is truth. It doesn’t matter what you do or what you are really like but please dun be fake to your friends or practice inconsistency that is GROSS…

Personal lifewise – nothing interesting, nothing changed still in status quo except alex’s dad got sicker this year and had a worrying 3weeks at SGH.

Stressed me out big time. I did a lot of “new” first time things in my life and a lot of things happened and made me feel like a different person.

Spiritually I have been more engaged this last month, I beginning to find myself through prayers. I get a lot of peace through it. Somehow it’s a wonderful discovery. Strange, known it all my life since I was in kindergarten and to find it back only 20odd years later… Growing out my hair is another item. Had cornea infection no more contact lense for me ( if I can help it)

Sis got herself a bf finally though it came as a shock to me. everything is… but I learnt to accept it. Cant help it right she has the right to choose what she wants, its her life, for better or worse. Sis is much closer with me now, shares a lot more issues but I still feel she needs to be able to cope with her own issues more. Need to be more independent. Not her fault. Mom’s too protective. I m more like the wild one. Cant be tamed just be tolerated.

Now I m just counting down to my year end break. Same thing every year, travel to msia 2x towards the end. this year I spent lesser time in Malacca , alex got to work on sat so that explains a lot on the weekend parts haha.. but its ok we have compensating / mitigating plans wahahahaha

Now awaiting the arrival of a even more challenging 2010. Not sure how it will be tough it definitely be… BUT I hope I can make it a better one than 2009

And I will…. I have been

So far so good I can rem what I read.

I know I m a nag but I don’t want you to be alone….i spend time worrying for you sometimes

I know you are feeling a void at times and I wish I can spend more time with you but I m caught up with a lot of things especially in the month of NOV.

My dear pal, I wish you well

BUT I must control control & control

At least till after the 22nd. NO DISTRACTION till exams are over.

I was trying to decide between the I touch and PSP but finally PSP won after I went to JB on sat.

The games are wonderful…. Movies are also available.. I would love to load a few cartoons movies

I m a sucker for such things. But really I think the turning point is SONY… I love SONY…. To apple anytime

It has been a tough month for me.

Firstly all the birthdays… not that I did a lot of celebrations…

Den “oldie” had to be in hosp for 3 whole weeks – scared the shit out of me. ( he is still unwell but I feel bad)

Den I had eye trouble which made me go to DOC all the way since 13 NOV till NOW… argh…..

And I drank too much…. At eric wedding…. A tad too much wasn’t wasted wasted but was alttile high hehe

Den missed a few functions and didn’t get to bond with my friends as much as I wanted… haiz

Is growing faster then I thought. Its just six months since the perm but its really growing out nicely hehe

Well someone told me, if u want you hair to grow faster, you will have to tie up more oftern..hmmm

Of people, Of things and of life

1. the hospital

2. the cemetery / the columbarium

3. funeral parlors / wakes

can you think of anymore? Please feel free to add on

Plans are no plans at the moment

Nursing red sore eye… nursing sick old man

Haiz why doesn’t he get well faster??